As I've already mentioned, I see a therapist on a weekly basis. I felt it very necessary because cancer was sending me into a deep depression. Since May is Mental Health Awareness Month, I thought I'd just say a few things about mental health and self care - especially when dealing with an illness. I … Continue reading Mental Health and Self Care
Monday was supposed to be my first chemo appointment, but we discovered that my veins were just too small and wounded to handle the drugs. So they scheduled me to have a port inserted. What is a port you ask? Well a port, short for Port-a-Cath is a device that they implant under your skin … Continue reading Round 1 – or not
Such a great book! You should read it! So I've been trying to do little things to uplift my spirit. For instance, I've been going to meditation, something that I will definitely continue doing. I'm continuing to see my therapist. I've also been reading. I'm reading Wishes Fulfilled by Dr. Wayne Dyer and Dying to … Continue reading Change the Way You Look at Things, the Things You Look at Change
Today, April 9th would have been a year of being cancer free. A year that seemed to whirl by so fast and slug by so slow. As I look back on this year, so much has happened. Finally being done with chemo and being super excited about moving on with my life. Reopening my shop. … Continue reading Cancerversary???
“The oldest and strongest emotion of mankind is fear, and the oldest and strongest kind of fear is fear of the unknown” ― H.P. Lovecraft I spend a lot of time thinking. I have so many thoughts and so much constant chatter in my mind. I started meditating and I try to stay "present." But … Continue reading Depression is Really a Thing
Proton Machine at Robert Wood Johnson University Hospital Today I have an appointment with a doctor to see if I am a candidate for proton therapy. Proton therapy is a form of radiation, that uses beams to kill cancer cells in tumors. The big difference in traditional radiation is that proton therapy is able to … Continue reading Proton Therapy
Yesterday, I told my mother that I was going to forgo chemo and that I just wanted to live my life until that life is over. I told her that I was both physically, mentally and emotionally exhausted. That didn't go over too well. She told me that I was being selfish and compared it … Continue reading The Disagreement