The weather was beautiful at the beginning of last week, but for most of it, I wasn't able to muster up the energy to really go out to enjoy it. I am so fatigued. When they tell you about being fatigued from the chemo, they should say, "FAAAATIIIIGUED." That way, you can expect the level … Continue reading Fatigue. Tired. Whatever you want to call it.
Note: I was looking through the "Cancer Blog" folder on my computer and ran across this blog that I wrote on December 18, 2019 and realized that I never posted it. So, here it goes... Today I cried in the shower. Lately I’ve been feeling… overwhelmed? I’m not sure if that’s the word I want … Continue reading I Cried In the Shower
I've been gone for a while. I felt like I needed to take a break. Actually, I still feel like I need to take a break. But anyway, a lot has happened since I last wrote. I finished proton therapy on October 4th. I went five days a week for seven weeks. The radiation beam … Continue reading The Struggle Continues…
Today while taking what could have been one of the best naps of my life, I was interrupted by a phone call. It was my oncologist. She started off the conversation by asking how I was doing. I've come to know her and when it's good news, she starts the conversation with the news, but … Continue reading Am I Gonna Die From Cancer???
Before each round of chemo, my doctor checks my tumor markers. They usually run on the low side. In fact, I found the lump a few weeks after my bi-monthly visit to my oncologist. My tumor marker numbers were within range, so I didn't think much of the lump (probably scar tissue). It wasn't until … Continue reading Tumor Markers & Scans
This blog helps a lot. I sometimes find it difficult to tell my loved ones that I feel sad, depressed or that I am in pain or having a bad day. I feel like people automatically expect me to be “strong.” They look at me and because I don’t look sick, they assume that I’m … Continue reading Depression and Sadness
A lot has happened since I finished chemotherapy.
It’s been 129 days since I found out that the cancer was back. I have had three ultrasounds, two biopsies, two surgeries, four rounds of chemo, numerous days of feeling shitty and I don’t know how many visits to the doctor. Today was my last day of chemo! Can you believe it??? When this first … Continue reading Adios to Chemo!